I have been intentionally focused on so much beyond what my heart can even process over the last few weeks. I am choosing to stay in the moment, and not be distracted by things that are way out of my control and instead choosing to do something about what I can.
The political climate, the division, the non-stop argument about vaccinate or not to vaccinate, and all of the other things swirling in the cesspool of the media and public outcry would have been really distracting, intriguing and debilitating before.
Before, the situation we are walking through with my mom’s illnesses and all the complications that has brought, would have left me in a pity pool party for one.
And I know, without a doubt in my mind, that God knew the before, He knew the now and He knows the beyond. When I get stuck in the middle of wanting to understand the why, and find myself beginning to care a bit too much about opinions and lack of wisdom then I start doing and thinking in a pattern of before. I even start behaving in a pattern similar to that which was before.
I am constantly having my head turned round like a stubborn-headed horse that wants to go their own way. He is constantly having to remind me who has the reins and who doesn’t. He doesn’t do it forcefully, but gently. He uses constant even pressure to remind me that He has control and can see beyond. He uses a still, small, steady voice to remind me that it’s all going to be okay, because He has everything lined out ahead.
Beyond four months ago, when the last thing I ever imagined I would be doing was taking my mom into my home to care for her when she cannot truly care for herself any longer.
Beyond a year ago, when we weren’t even speaking to each other.
Beyond nearly six years ago, when I had to set the boundary for my own sanity while He knew what was coming and had some horse-training to do.
Beyond a period of more than eight years of walking with Jesus, choosing recovery and continuing to practice the principles in all my affairs when this stubborn horse would rather just run or quit.
My hope is in the One who knows the beyond because He is the beyond. He is not only beyond but above all things.
The things of this world, they may matter some, but they don’t have the final say. The hurts, habits and hangups do not have to have the final say when He is given the reins as many times as it takes. Eventually, the horse will no longer need to be regularly reminded of who is in control or who has the reins. Even the most well-trained but still stubborn horse needs a little tune up every once in a while.
My encouragement today is to remember that He goes before. He goes beyond. He can see what we cannot see. My question is how many times in the last months has he gently pressured and turned your stubborn head around to remind you that He has everything held gently in the palm of His hand?
Have you forgotten that He is not only the lamb, but the lion?
We sit in the before every day that we wake up and know that one day all things will be new again. We can look forward to the beyond where He went before us.